Liking him sucks so much and I can't seem to tell anyone the real feeling I'm having now.

I wanna run away.

I don't ever, ever wanna see him again!

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It's Friday! (:

And also the 3rd day of school. Well actually it's been fine! But I'm feeling the nervousness, anxiety, and stress already. I pray it'll be fine. Please pray for me too, haha. My class, 3H '07 is actually not that bad. They don't really give me a weird feeling, but instead, I feel like I'm used to the class and people already. Although I haven't exactly talked to the guys except Aaron, Gideon, Kenneth and a few words to Khamarul, I suppose they're quite nice. The girls are nicenice! :D There's Rachel Marie, Xiao Jia, Fiany, Ying Jia, Alison, Rachel Leong, Traxie and Li Xuan. Though I haven't talked much to Traxie, Rachel Leong and Li Xuan. Heh. I have teachers like Mrs Audrey Chen, Mr Yusri, Mdm Mariam, Wei Lao Shi, Mrs Koh, Mrs Goh & Mrs Neo.

I was reading Chapter 1 of my History Elect textbook yesterday night and damn! It really got me interested. Whopee I hope I do well for that subject! :] Haha. Pure Geog seemed a little boring at first, because I was learning about the structure of the Earth- the crust, mantle and core, but today! I learnt a little about the Plate Tectonic theory, and it's getting me thinking too. Good thing. Cause when I was in sec 1 and 2, questions rarely popped up in my head all because I wasn't using my brain to think. Serious, I was very lazy during those 2 years. I didn't like Wei Lao Shi at first, and I was complaining to myself when I saw him outside my classroom waiting for the hmt students. But when he was talking to us about his expectations and rules for his class, I gradually liked him. I don't know! I found him to be very chubby. I know, sounds absurd. But yeah, he's quite nice. The only thing was, Rina that girl sabotaged me to be the Chinese Rep. Oh damn, it'll be so embarrassing because he's a choir teacher too! Dang. And yes, I've made up my mind to do well for Chinese, especially. I need to do well for Chinese this year.

So! From Monday onwards, lesser of blogging and coming online unless I need to do projects or research on something. Other than that, I don't think I'll be coming online to blog-hop like I usually do and check my Friendster & email. So yeah, don't miss me! Heh heh. I'm kidding.

Today was kind of a long day, a little sad too. I think it's gonna be just an old friendship that's history. I don't know what to say to her, and I really, really don't want to be bothered again. Because last year was enough. Honestly, I think I had enough of that friendship thing last year. So I wanna make new friends this year and look forward to the future. I'm not abandoning the friendship, I'm just not strengthing it, but I still won't forget all the fun times I had with her. Thank you so much for the funny & happy times friend, I appreciate everything that you have for me, and good luck for your future endeavours. (: I'm sorry.

Saw him at the basketball court after school today. And I don't even know what I should do now. I'm trying to kick him out of my head, as Alex said I should, but I just can't seem to do it. It's funny how both of us know each other and used or are still 'friends', but we don't even say hi. Is it you, or me? You're leaving at the end of this year, and I don't want to cry after you leave.

It's CCA Recruitment Day tomorrow! Hooray. Join TK Choir Sec Ones! You'll have a lifetime experience. Well maybe not exactly, but you'll remember it for life. And of course, it'll be all happy memories. There are, unhappy times during Choir at times but it'll be over soon and besides, it's the same for other CCAs too right? Life just has its ups & downs. Even something unhappy happened about two months ago to me & my choir pals, and now we're over it! I still love TK Choir.

For TK Choir, I will! (:

Cya tmr, to those who are going.

P.S. Thank you Alex, for the letter! Your handwriting's really nice, unlike mine. Hah. And yes, I got loads of stuff to talk to you about too. Maybe I'll write a reply letter. And you don't need to reply me, if you're busy. [: Loves!

P.S.S. Rina, I'm sorry I wasn't able to do anything to make you feel better. Cheer up anyhow, and I'll pray for you. And I just wanna tell you, you didn't make a wrong choice by coming to TK. I don't want to see my dearest and closest friend sad. Loads of love.

It's the 2nd of January 2007, which means tomorrow's the 3rd, which lastly means school's tomorrow.

Dang.

Oh before I continue, I wanna wish everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR again! :D May 2007 be a goooooooood year for ya, god bless all!  

Okay so I cut my hair yesterday. And I think I look sillly. >:( Really. I wonder what are my friends gonna say when they see me tomorrow. I'm betting that some of them might say I look ugly. But it's okay, cause I think I look ugly too! Hah. And as I expected, my mother didn't like it. 'What a waste of money, cut until like that, might as well not cut..only cut a few strips(when it's supposed to be strands) of hair, $7 gone to waste.'

Okay! I was sure pissed. Sometimes, I really don't understand. She doesn't support me in like, whatever things I do. All I know is, she wants perfection. I hate it, because no one's perfect, so I just hate it when she wants perfection in everything. It's irritating.

My very first day of 2007 was sucky. But hey, I guess I'll be more optimistic, and not superstitious, thinking that if the first day is ruined, the rest of the year is gonna be bad. Oh man. I'll try.

I'm halfway at writing those Thank You letters and I'll probably stay up a little later to finish them up so that I can give them out tomorrow! (: I've put up my new year resolutions on my white board too! Hopefully I'll achieve them this year. o.0

For this year, I'll be a gooooooood girl, yes I will! Lesser of using the computer, lesser of blogging, and lesser of slacking. Yay I can do it. I think. I hope Santa rewards me for this at the end of the year by giving me an ipod Video. (: I'm poor, and I know this isn't the latest gadget now, but I'll be happy if I have it. Materialistic? Aiyah a bit.

The 3 muskerteers aren't online! ): Where'd you all go, I miss you all so.

I'm having mixed feelings, tell me why.

Goodbye people! Happy schooling :p Lots of love.

I'm back today! To continue. Haha.

Hmm, so yes after playing mahjong it was 12 plus already, I think and we went back home. Okay yeah that was my first day of Christmas! There's 12 days of Christmas right! Right? o.0

Yesterday night after going offline, I was talking to Rina on the phone. And she was very, very weird.

Rina: I find it damn scary leh.

Andrea: Huh? What thing scary?

Rina: Dunno.

Haha! And I told her about what I feared next year, that I would fail my studies, that I wouldn't cope. Really, I'm just scared. Sigh. But nevermind! My motivation's coming! And I pray that I'll make it through 2007. No I'm not dying of any illness, but maybe I'll just 'die' of stress. Er but I know the secfours will be having a harder time, so I think I shall stop worrying so much.

Andrea ah Andrea, have more self-confidence.

Okay I shall end it here, I'll go sort out my books and stuff! Goodbye people(:

Here's HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! In case I don't have time to update! Love.

I cannot believe school's starting in just a few days time! Dammit, dammit. Worse still, I cannot believe that my two beloved months of holidays are flying away in 2 days' time! Or, are ending. Time flies too fast, especially for holidays. It seems weird. The holidays come and go so quickly, but the exams just look like they're never-ending and unfortunately, they keep coming back. Sheesh. Maybe it's how I spend my holidays huh.

Definitely unproductive. Okay maybe quite. Not counting the stuff about choir, the rest was er, not productive. At least I learnt some things in Malacca with the choir, but I don't know whether I can make use of it well. I hope so. But being able to bond with my friends and some other choir people was really nice. Finding a job was the most frustrating. Erm, maybe I shan't talk about it. Hanging out with good friends were fun, but spent a lot a lot of money. No more salary, just ang pow money. ): And left with 2 vouchers that Judith gave me, I'm still wondering whether I should go buy something, at least. So that I won't waste those vouchers. But then again, my mum said I'm not to go out tomorrow. Oh man.

I'm still debating with myself on whether I should go and cut my hair. I think I've annoyed a lot of people regarding this matter. I've been asking a lot of people, and the most number of times I asked were Rachel & Rina I think. I don't know! And I'm wondering if I should just go QB house and get some 10 min haircut and then get it done over with, or to go to Red's with that 25% off voucher shyly, or to go to the hair salon that Rachel goes to, OR to go to the one where it's only 7 bucks but I don't know where is it or when I'm going because Geraldine hasn't told me anything and when I asked her, she didn't reply. Dang, what a hassle. Oh my dear hair, why can't you just grow the way I want you to? And then I'll save the hassle of going to a hair salon, having to pay for transport & the haircut service all by myself with my ang pow money? ): Oh btw, I'm not cutting it because I want it short. It's because I want a different fringe, and not so much thick hair.

Blink Blink. Random, sorry. It's some thing between our clique in choir. Haha damn funny. Eeeeh, I miss that African Sanjana girl lah! Don't tell me she's still in India. Haha.

Oh so today went to watch Death Note 2 with Georgina, Rachel, Wei Fang, Andre, Kenny, Andy & Joe. I'm such a big sinner today. So, I was super late, and when I got there, the movie was cancelled because there were technical problems! I was..pissed. I had to rush rush rush because of my phone. When I got out of the house, the phone battery died on me. I stormed back home to charge the phone and it was irritating me like hell. 2 chargers, 1 charger about 15 mins, it charged a little teeny bit. I was so angry I wanted to dump my phone. The movie was postponed to 2pm in the end. It was rather okay, ending was a little sad, but I still prefer the first one I think. Anyway yes, I said I'm a big sinner today cause I was horrible to Andre today. But what, he pissed me further! So it's aiyah, not really my fault. I have a temper! Erm, doesn't everyone have one? Ah but anyway, sorry Andre. Don't know why you didn't really my sms, so I'll say sorry to you here okay. Sorry Andre Erwin. (:

I've got my new books today! Ah, love new books. Yay. I hope they'll stay clean & nice until the end of the year. Haha okay wishful thinking.

Oh I forgot to mention Christmas! (: Went to church in the morning with my parents and then later went to visit Aunty Annie & my mum's godma. After that, went to my grandaunty's place to rest, and stayed there for the day. Played mahjong in the night. I lost to the sole winner by only 20cents!

Shit I have to go now, they're bugging me again and again.

Okay bye.